The newest picture of our little butter bean!!

Well, I am diggin these weekly ultrasounds. Usually they dont let me see for more than a second because they want to measure and see if anything is wrong but today I got to watch it all and they even gave me a picture.

I had a really scarey episode last night with tons of bright red bleeding and cramping. My Ob had me come in early this morning to get checked out. The baby was measuring one day ahead of schedule so he/she is doing perfect. A strong heartbeat of 168, it was a beautiful sound. However the Subchorionic Hemorrhage is still actively bleeding so that means I get to stay on bedrest still! Ugh but its worth it.

I go back on friday to check things out and do my formal long visit with the OB. I wasnt going to do the NT Scan but my OB really wants me to do it, in light of everything going on. SO I decided to do it but I do not want to know the results because regardless this is our baby and nothing will change that.

I am still guarded in regards to this pregnancy, I know I have had 4 beautiful ultrasounds and the odds of losing this pregnancy is so small, less than 5% right now but I will not feel safe until I have this baby in my arms.

My intuition is telling me this baby is boy. I dont know why but I keep thinking boy, so we will see in the End of June what we are having.

10 weeks 3 days..I cant believe I have made it this far.

How far along: 10 weeks and 3 days.

Total weight gain: I have lost about 7-10 pounds depending on the day.

How much does baby weigh: I think about half an ounce.

Maternity clothes: I am wearing maternity pants for sheer comfort, not out of necessity.

Stretch marks: I have them already from my first pregnancy (loss)

Sleep: I take a nap during the day and I am in bed by 9pm.

Best moment this week: Getting to see our baby again, with his/her little arms moving.

Movement: None besides gas bubbles

Food cravings: Watermelon, potato salad

Belly button in or out: Obviously still an innie

What I miss: Still Sweet Tea and being able to stay up late at night.

What I'm looking forward to: Bedrest to be over.

Milestone: Making it this far, its the farthest I have gone without m/s

This baby is making me work really hard for it....

As if I didn't work hard enough or wait long enough. I have been having terrible bouts of hyperemesis (excessive vomitting) which is a good sign because that means hormones are raging! However after a couple days of this, I got so dehydrated that when I went to vomit there was nothing left and the force of it ended up with the blood vessels in my eyes and around my face rupturing. I look fantastic!!

I started spotting yesterday morning, ever so slighly but my OB sent me to the ER for IV hydration and to get an ultrasound.

After 16 hours there, IVs, Blood work, U/s and MRI they have determined that I have a hemorrhage in the placenta. This would be the reason for the spotting. Its a small hemorrhage and they are optimistic that it will clear on its own but until then I am ordered to bedrest, pelvic rest (poor Tim) and weekly ultrasounds to monitor the baby and the hemorrhage.

It sucks but Its all worth it in the end and I would do anything to have this baby even if that means laying flat on my back for 9 months. I am okay with that if I need to. The good part is that I get to see the baby every friday!! That alone even with the hemorrhage will give me peace of mind just seeing that the baby is thriving!

As far as the ultrasound goes the baby is measuring about 6 days behind what it should be however the attribute that to Tech Error or the fact that I have a retroverted uterus which can sometimes make it hard to see the baby correctly this early. However, the heartbeat was stellar at a whopping 176 bpm! I didnt get to see the baby on u/s last night because if there is a threat of a miscarriage they wont let you look but my husband got to watch and he said he could see the little arms, legs and the heart beating! So thats good news

Update time.

I will try to post an update once a month. If I can remember! So to help, I stole this from a fellow blogger. Thanks for sharing.



How far along: 8 weeks and 3 days

Total weight gain: I have actually lost a few pounds thanks to m/s!

How much does baby weigh: I have no idea

Maternity clothes: Nothing but a bella band and maybe some big girl underpants since my smaller ones really are starting to hurt and restrict my belly bloat

Stretch marks: I have them already from my first pregnancy (loss)

Sleep: I am up twice a night to pee but I have been going to bed very early

Best moment this week: Hmm lets see, learning how to hold my vomit long enough to make it to the bathroom at work instead of throwing up on my own shoes again.

Movement: None besides gas bubbles

Food cravings: Spicy asian lettuce wraps

Belly button in or out: Obviously still an innie

What I miss: Sweet Tea and sleeping on my stomach, If I roll over on it, I barf (yes I have vomitted on my pillow, not fun in the middle of the night)

What I'm looking forward to: Everything, all the m/s, the gas. the bloat, the fatigue you name it!! It all means that I am pregnant! I will take it all happily.

Milestone: Making it to 8 weeks, which in the past was my failure point.

My Miracle is in the works finally!!

Well, I didnt want to get too attached to the idea that we were going to have a baby. Everytime we made it to our ultrasound date there was never a heart beat and that was the end of it.

So going into today's appointment I couldnt even look at the ultrasound screen. Tim was sitting there looking at the wall holding his breath but then the tech turned up the volume and we could hear the heartbeat. I instantly starting crying like a little girl, Tim leaned over and looked at the screen in awe that He couldnt believe what we were hearing and seeing! I looked over and saw our baby!! The heart flickering so quickly and I measured exactly 7w2d as my chart suggested. The doctor said that was a great sign of things progessing beautifully. There were no signs of clots in the placenta or yolk sac as in other lost pregnancies. The doctor feels that this is going to be the one! I have to continue all of my medication just to be safe but other than that, nothing special.

We feel so truly blessed!!

Thank you...

First I wanted to say thank you to all of you ladies. Thank you for your prayers, thank you for all your well wishes and comments. Tim and I are truly blessed.

We had our first appointment today because I will be monitored very closely. My 14dpo Beta was 111 which the doc says is great. I had another beta and progesterone done today at 15dpo but wont get the results until monday. I started my progesterone injections today, I may not have to stay on them but my Doc wanted to start just in case until my blood work comes back. He said either way you cant have too much progesterone right now. He decided to increase my Synthroid from 125 to 137mcg because he wants my thyroid a little higher active to reduce risk of miscarriage, Also staying on the metformin through at least the first tri because that also reduces risk of miscarriage.

Our first U/s is April 17th!! We are so excited I cant wait. My next one will be May 15th and then again June 19th. I have the first tri all scheduled. In July or August I will have to have a NTS or NST (whichever its called) and if everything is okay then I wont need another u/s until its time to check weight etc towards the end of my pregnancy.

My husband and I are finally let it sink in now that we saw the beta in writting and its really happening!!

Thank you for all the support! I couldnt have made it through all this without all of you!

HOLY SHIIITTT!!!!

I freaking got my BFP yesterday I am in so much shock its insane!! I cant believe it. I mean I just posted how I KNOW that this cycle was a bust and I was out of the game. LOOK wow, I am at a loss for words. My husband seriously has some great swimmers to last as long as they did!!

We are in shock, thats all I can say!! I had my Beta done today at work. I will get that back tomorrow! I have my first OB appointment tomorrow to start my progesterone supplements. I dont think it will seem real until I see that Beta in my hand!!







I will post more tomorrow after my appointment, right now I am speechless!!

TTC sucks!

Ughh I missed my O this month thanks to a broken heel. It sucks, I hate that there is no chance for this cycle. Next cycle my husband has to go away to a Best of the Best competition for the Army. He won his portion so he has orders to go and he can not miss it. Well, normally I would go with him but its Spring break week here and half my office is going to be out so I have to be at work. He is going the week that I am due to O. Which sucks so it means I have to wait to TTC again until MAY!!!!!!!!! That sucks!! But May I think would give us a february baby which is my birthday month, my mom and dads Bday month too! So I still am optimistic. I just hate waiting! I am so anxious to see what happens!

Oh well, at least I dont have to feel the pressure of the 2ww.

The Season of Change

WOW Where do I begin!! This was my first Full cycle on all my new IF treatments and I have seen so many changes that I am excited about.

I had a FULL day of EWCM, I rarely EVER have more than a spot of it. My last LP was a whole 4 and a half days longer than it has ever been! I have been having mid cycle spotting right around O... I also had a HUGELY positive OPK yesterday!! These are all exciting things for me because I have had such a tough time with all of these things.

I am so excited and so optimistic about all these changes. Even though I know that I will not get my BFP this month due to poor timing (long story)..I know that it may just happen this year!! I am determined to have a 2010 baby!!

So on to the bad timing...I broke my heel (no, not my shoe but my actual heel of my foot)..The doc says its a stress fracture but I cant put any pressure or weight on my heal for 6 weeks. Which means I am in a huge boot ughhh....Which means last night when I had my OPK, we did not have the opportunity to get it on! Thanks to the foot and the doc and the long journey home since there is no point staying away when I cant do anything fun!

However, I will chalk this cycle up to practice for an amazing cycle next month that awaits me!

Still trucking along!!

Well I am just heading into my very first Ovulation cycle with the full dose of all my meds. I am still trying to get used to such a high dose of Metformin but otherwise I am doing okay.

As far as all the new thyroid meds go, I have noticed that I am not coming home from work and taking a nap everyday like I used to, so I guess it is working much better than previously. I am excited to see what this cycle brings.

Just the couple weeks that I had been the on the new medications, I had a noted 4 and a half day increase in my LP, which is so freaking amazing because I RARELY hit 11 days. So to get AF on the night of LP day 14 going into 15 was amazing!! Its a great sign of things to come.

I still want to be a little guarded about getting my hopes up however I cant help but feel optimistic somehow. Dh is just going with the flow because he loves me but also is at the point where if it just doesnt happen then he is content with a life of just the two of us.

Well for this week, its been nice. I have only had patients two days this week so that I can get my charting and pathology done before the AAD.

I cant wait to have time alone with my husband!!! Stress free time.